If its only in my head

I got stuck in my laporan ROS (Rancangan Orientasi Sekolah) again, gah! Tension kot, writing in Bahasa Melayu, like skema BM ok. All berkarat already. Its not like my english pon power rangers, lol. So yeah, conclusion is i always got stuck when it comes to serious writing. In fact in real life pon, its hard for me to get serious kot, heh.


So tomorrow i'll be heading to Penang back, sobs. It feels good to be at home for 2 weeks, ignoring ROS. ROS is ok, just that tak tahan the traffic jams everyday. My school is Sek Men Sains Seri Puteri which is located in front of the PWTC and the bangunan UMNO. And not helping either when the perhimpunan UMNO was held last week. Like perlu ke minggu ni jugak la dia nak buat perhimpunan. Bertambah la jam and all. Mama said, if u want to work in the KL, u haf to face it la. Stress at works + traffic jams, mentally and physically fatigue (speaking thru 13 years of experiences working at Jalan Raja Laut). Hmm, sumthing to think of.


Anyways, i was wandering around The Curve this evening, alone. Pathetic i know. No ones home la, so i thot of going there window shopping ;) Window shopping the heck la kan, i ended up finishing RM300, im doom :( The guilt is over me now. I bought 3 pair of shoes and 5 shirts. And i haf to like kuatkan iman to ignore the bags. Sheesh. Owh owh, there's a fortune teller at the Flea Market at The Street, i walked pass by the booth twice kot. And the pakcik was looking pelik at me. The pakcik is a chinese man, with white hair and jangguts and wearing like a traditional chinese cloth. Can he predicts sumthing if i just walked by? Or is it, its too weird for me to walk alone? Dat makes me wonder a bit la, is it Haram if i do the fortune teller thingy? Heh, too many questions eyh.


Selain itu, wowwy, tiba-tiba 'selain itu'. I was using 'selain itu' for so many times in my laporan. So anyhow, last night i was doing marathon on 'Glee', i always thot glee sounds like geli. lol. 7 episodes in one night, u do the calcuations la brapa jam i mengadap laptop. Not to finish up homeworks but to watch tv series, pfft. But, am definitely going to follow this series for sure. Its sumhow reminds me a bit of HSM. The one i was gila-ing once upon a time, haha. But Glee is better in so many ways la. Sooo, wherever im posting later, please ada sumone like Mr Will Schuester ;p To Terry Schuester, stop being so stupid, u ada husband yg hot and responsible kot! Duh~ Hmm, adding this show, i haf 7 tv series im following. Not enuf for my broadband capacity, haih. Harus bertolak ansur di situ, haha.


One more important things, like everything above is important pon, lol. I seriously need to start diet. Harus berusaha! I gain total of 5 kilos and its going nowhere. Im tired of watching the scale showing at the same number every single time. To whoever yang tak nampak i gain weight, believe me, im good at hiding fats, lol. Well, by any chance if Siti Nurhaliza can lose weight, so am i, haha. She is now kurus back, jeles plis. So as the cikgu-cikgu at Seri Puteri who have like 2, 3 children tapi maintain kurus. I yg not even married pon lagi, harus la menjaga dan berjaga ;p


Enuf crapping, back to works, loads of works! Benci kerja sekolah!

p/s; Brazil San Paulo F1 Grand Prix was dramatic! On the other hand, tak sabar tunggu jemaat depan, nak tgk nurkasih ;) Eventho i sumhow knows the story a bit here and there.

Go Shawty, its ur Birthday!

So 2nd September this year was well celebrated tho its the fasting month. This is my second time celebrating my birthday in the holy month.

The nite before, i.e 1st september midnite, i only received a few wishes. Even ayah didnt wish at all. But ayah gave an early birthday card la. Still, on the day kena wish juga ;p The friends? Ayu je sms dari biliknye, yg hanya la terletak depan my room kot. Miera, teman sebilik? Awal-awal lagi dah tido. Doinks. So i melayan perasaan di atas katil, sambil mendodoi diri utk tido. Tiba-tiba menerima panggilan dari seberang, wah~ seberang! Overseas i mean. Itu pon setelah merajuk hati. But still gembira, akhirnyer ade orang wish secara lisan, tho technically its thru the phone  ;p

The start of my birthday sungguh la tak best. There was an assembly at padang. I was wearing baju kurung for god sake. Dengan pump shoes lagi, buat tenggelam je dalam padang yg berair itu. Eeuuuww~ Ditambah pula dengan lewat hadir, beratur la di barisan mereka-mereka yg lewat. Boo! Hukuman yg diterima, bila mana orang lain pergi ke kelas pada pukul 8 pagi keesokannya, kami diwajibkan pergi pada jam 7 pagi. Which was by the time i keluar bilik, dah siap berpakaian lengkap, ade la dua, tiga orang dengan mamainyer baru nak pegi mandi. Demn~ 

And the day passed by as usual, classes and perjumpaan unit beruniform in the evening. Blegh! Siap kena marah dengan guru penasihat bcos of salah paham di antara guru penasihat yg lain. Apekah? After perjumpaan, balik bilik and ready for berbuka. Still, no one wishes. Bersedey la serba sedikit, but i told myself, come on la odey, u dah tua kot. Maybe at this age, we dont do celebration. Heh. After berbuka, smyg and all, bersiap sedia for perjumpaan kelas. There has been a lot going, groups presentation la, more and more presentations. And i thot the perjumpaan kelas is for merdeka nite.

So pegi la ke kelas dengan malasnyer, tp bergegas jugak sbb dah lewat. Miera la, sakit perut plak, nak pegi toilet la, nak tukar tudung la, mcm-mcm. By the time nk pegi kelas, bump into joe. So off we went together. By the time smpi kelas, tak start pon lagi. So duduk la goyang-goyang kaki, when suddenly Yana came in the class with a cake on her hand. So satu kelas pon menyanyi kan lagu hari jadi. Wuuhu~ was blushing gila masa tu! I dont even know how to react pon. Terharu kot. And then ntah datang dari mana, there was some junk foods and soft drinks and of course we ate the cake. Silap la tak pakai lawa-lawa, if only i knw there'll be a celebration. Pakai baju tajaan Celcom saje. Lol. But baju tu berjaya menjeleskan bazil and meng, because they pon nak the shirt. Lawak dow~

At the end of the day, gembira la :D Padan la no one bothers to wish early dat day. Tahniah kepada Miera menjadi pelakon terhebat, melewat-lewatkan kehadiran ke kelas. Thanks a lot to Yana for being the master planner. KK and penolong KK, i.e Shazni and Marisa for make it sounds official the perjumpaan kelas. And of course the whole classmates, for celebrating the day. Thanks a bunch u guys ;) Thanks to those who wishes me thru sms-es, facebook and wutever devices u guys used. And thanks for the pressie as well :)

 

This was when i just received the cake. Miera kat sebelah plak excited lebey, lol.

The classmates ;D 

Unpredictable

To reader-used-to-be; Am very sorry for not updating my blog, for historically 4 months. Demn, its too long! If im a pregger, im half way thru already man! Ahah kidding.


So anyways, loads of things happened and happening. Never know that 4 months can change that mucho! From not graduated to a graduand, from enjoying live in the UK and now im back for good and missing the UK so demmnn much, from being happy ecstatic to tears streaming down my cheek to being happy again, from a longer hair to a shorter one and so forth. Conclusion is, things changed! A LOT!


Reasons for not updating are so simple; Ever heard of facebook? Ahah, who hasnt, we shud keep them under the coconut shell forever! Twitter-ing, tweety-birdies. And am too busy doing nothing, stuffs i myself dont even know wut i've been doing. And being pain in the ass, lazy-ing around. And i shud say, not having the appropriate times to write a single entry. Alasans!


Im making it short, May is the month of exams. I hardly remember anything else, beside being stressfull because its final year exams. Besides the ridiculous gaps in between. June is the month of honey-mooning. Exams over peeps. Been to Turkey and packing stuffs for shipping. Turkey is a very great place indeed. Shipping took most of the weeks, which results in 8 boxes shipped ;p And July, another month honey-mooning, went to Nice, France and Monte Carlo, Monaco. The place is very nice, i dun mind going there twice ;) Mucho thanks to the friends who are willing to make the trip succeed. Note to the future husband, take me to Nice and Monaco for holidays please. Ahah. And also its the month of graduation! Been to friends and own graduation ceremonies. I miss my university very much :( I miss Nottingham.


August is over. Boy, how time flies. Well sumtimes i want to turn back time and sumtimes i want to fastforward everything. Im now having my KPLI. Life at KPLI? Honestly it sucks a lot, but am keeping it real. For all the freedoms i haf in the UK, it disappeared in a blink of eye. U know how people say that when u go to other country, u'll have culture shock. Believe it or not, im having one at my own country. How pathetic is that. Not to elaborate more, just that im going with the flow, keep life moving on. Aim and hoping for the best :) This is the only life u haf odey. Screw it or make things right!


To might-be-existing-readers; I hope i cud update as frequent as i can, lol.

To you-know-who-you-are; Update yours.

If its going to be a rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that wont stop the rain

i-tunes; Please Dont Stop The Rain - James Morrison.

Single but not available

Hmm. I always dont understand wut the fudge 'single but not available' supposed to mean. Its like u haf sumone but u r not truly entitled to him or her yet ke? Then that doesnt make any difference with 'couple', i think. Because 'couple' pon its not like u truly entitled pon kan, but i dunno. Tho ive been there done that, screw things, make things, break hearts, hearts broken. Ok, wutever people. As far as im concern im still single ;) Eh seswai ke the emoticon 'wink with a smile'? Ok im actually tak tau nak happy or sad for being single.


Again wutever, takde maknanyer i nak membebel pasal single, mingle, tangle wutever because asyik bercerita tentang hal ini saje. Ring the bell to all the single ladies out there (sambil menyanyi kan lagu 'single ladies' by beyonce, lol.) Sumtimes it just plain dead boring to cerita pasal this thing over and over again. But yeah, dats wut we do when we haf time to borak-borak. We're kind of stuck like dat. Haha. Anyways, enuf talking craps. I just want to continue miera's tag. So here it goes;


Bagi 5 sebab kenape anda masih single sampai sekarang walaupun siler sedar umur anda bukan 21 tahun seperti ade sesetengah orang masih perasan tapi hakikatnyer umur anda sudah …. (siler isi tempat kosong sendirik).


Im not ashamed to say im 22 going 23, tho i baru je ter-perasan muda the other day, saying that im 21 going 22 ;p

• Wasting times and being perasan. At the end, "owh i anggap u mcm my fren je, adik angkat je, kakak angkat je, angkat bakul je." Dang! Tak ke membazir bertahun-tahun begitu saje.

• Ayah said "Tunggu abes belajar la baru pikir", while mama said "Hang dah ada kawan ke belom? Masa belajar ni la cari." (sambil membuat muka hint-hint). Confusing ok. Mana satu nak ikut ni.

• Lelaki melayu kini, trend nya genit dan comel. Lol. Ok tak semua. Ada je yg tinggi, kacak tampan bergaya, tetapi dimiliki oleh supermodel-supermodel yg sexy dan 'the vogue the vazz'. I kan supermodel muslimah. Blegh! Mari muntah. But seriously, susah plak menjadi seorang yg galah. Hmm. I dun want la my laki to be shorter than me, at least sama tinggi ok :)

• Being fussy and cerewet. Bila akhirnya jumpa yg menepati, soklan pertama "Dia nak ke kat ko?" Zaappp! di situ.

• Kesimpulannya, dah takde orang yg nak. Kalo dah ada yg nak, sure dah tak single. Tp ada je yg nak, i plak tak nak. "Ada ke?" Lol. Life is complicated and confusing. Well, life's like that, wut to do.
  

Still wutever it is, i believe in jodoh. If say takde jodoh sekalipon, sob sob, life goes on! Damn, sedey plak. Ok, tagging anyone who thinks he or she is single. Tak single nak buat pon bley.

debunga cinta

Sila muntah dengan tajuk entry kali ini. Bluwergh!


Tiada mode jiwang di sini ye. Bukan ape, nak cerita pasal debunga atau dalam bahasa orang putihnya, 'pollen'. Bukan polenta ye, seperti dalam entry terbaru taufiq. Polenta adalah serbuk jagung yg sedap ;) Tetapi bunyinya seperti plasenta. Heh.


Al-kisahnya, petang tadi i went for a jog at the lakeside. Petang semalam pon, tp ngan azerq, and kami brisk walking je, idok ler lari bersungguh. Kami sekarang, mengamalkan kehidupan yg sihat dengan motif utamanya adalah utk ber-diet ;p Yesterday da weather was nice, not too windy, and warm sunny day. But today, it was a little bit chilly and windy. Tp disebabkan tegar dan tekad utk berjogging, ku gigihkan jugak kaki ini berlari-lari anak.


Yo yo o la lari pusing-pusing lake tu, sambil berangan, sambil menjamu mata, melirik ke arah abg-abg mat salleh yg lari dengan seksinya tu. Bak kata azerq, lelaki yg lari-lari dan berpeluh sket-sket tu HOT. Oh sila ambil nota, setengah-setengah lelaki je please. Berbalik kepada topik, bila sampai dekat area yg pokok-pokok bnyk dan sedikit gelap, kelajuan lari bertambah sebab takut. Ini bahana asyik tengok criminal minds. Terasa mcm ade orang jahat dalam semak samun tu. Ditambah plak trauma orang pecah masuk rumah masih di ingatan. Bila kelajuan lari bertambah, kadar pernafasan juga bertambah hebat.


Sehinggalah pada suatu ketika, i felt like my nose rasa sumthing wrong. Bukan tidak cukup nafas, tetapi terasa ade sesuatu di dalam liang pernafasan di hidung. Nota lagi, bukan lubang hidung ye. Ala, mcm area kat dalam batang hidung yg berdekatan dengan dua belah mata tu. Tetapi dengan tegar nya, tidak dipedulikan hidung ini. Habes lari, berjalan pulang ke rumah dan singgah di Spar utk membeli telur ayam.


When i was on my way back home, my nose kept on bersin like madness. Nasib baik la kat tepi jalan raya besar. Bunyi keta lagi kuat dari bunyi bersin yg mmg kuat ni. Bersin sepanjang perjalanan dan hidung terasa gatal-gatal. Gatal-gatal di bahagian dalam yg pastinya tidak boleh digaru. I tonyoh-tonyoh da hidung and keep on bersin. Smpi rumah, mucus plak mengalir. Bertisu-tisu la i, smbil menonyoh hidung yg semakin gatal gila. Pelik jugak, takde angin ribut tiba-tiba selsema. Tp rasanya bukan selsema sebab hidung gatal sangat, smpi rasa nak garu-garu muka. Memang dah tonyoh-tonyoh dah muka dan mata supaya hilang sket rasa gatal kat dalam tu.


Kebetulan i tengah chatting dengan my kakak angkat yg juga tahun terakhir jurusan doktor. So i tny la pendapat dia. And then she said, disebabkan i lari dekat lakeside, i maybe allergic dengan POLLEN. Nak-nak plak di musim pendebungaan ataupon spring season. Sah-sah la lakeside tu mempunyai spesis bunga yg pelbagai. Harini plak angin sedikit kencang. Pollen berterbangan merata-rata. She siap tny da mucus is clear or ade colour. And like she expects, it is clear. Da mucus is to clear down the pollen la kekdah nyer.


So now i know, im allergic to pollen atau debunga. Tak penah-penah la plak allergic ape-ape seblom ni. Penah la kot skali dulu, masa zaman sekolah asmara. Lol, sekolah asrama. Allergic ikan ape tah kat dewan makan tu. Gatal-gatal gila kat kaki. Tu je la. Nak kena pegi pharmacy la kot lepas ni, carik ubat antihistamine ape ke tah nama dia tadi kakak angkat ku bagi. Anyways, ni info tentang 'Pollen Allergy'. Mencik la hidung berair dan gatal-gatal sebegini. Rimas~



WHAT IS POLLEN ALLERGY?

The signs and symptoms of pollen allergy are familiar to many:

* Sneezing, the most common, may be accompanied by a runny or clogged nose
* Itching eyes, nose, and throat
* Allergic shiners (dark circles under the eyes caused by restricted blood flow near the sinuses)
* The "allergic salute" (in a child, persistent upward rubbing of the nose that causes a crease mark on the nose)
* Watering eyes


Memang tepat ape yg ku alami kan! Mencik! Perasaan gatal yg tidak boleh digaru. Nota; bukan gatal gedik tu tau. Bayangkan benda alah dalam gambar di bawah ade dalam hidung ku. Eeii, takut la plak. Rasa cam nak pi klinik sekarang je. Hidung dok makin berair dan gatal je. Waa~